falling with grace…

Today, I got up at 6:15am and went back to sleep awaiting the alarm to go off.  At 6:25 I decided to check it and see how much more sleep I had to go, and wow, I forgot to set the time for my run! Every step was indecision this morning.  My clothes, I was stressed cause my pants were tight and my shirt was wrinkled and everything was just getting on my nerves. I forgot my wedding ring so I had to go back and get it and got to the track late at about 7:15.  I felt like I was a whiny little kid again, dragging my feet every step along the way, you know the toe drag, the one that used to mess up your shoes when you were little.  Yeah that was me this morning.  But I walked on to the track anyhow.  Little did I know the battle that was about to take place! Every step was heavy, every breath forced and not only my body but my mind was all over the place! Ugh I wanted to just run off the track into my car and never come back!  But I cast down the thoughts, although they kept coming back!

For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, – 2 Corinthians 10:4-5

And then I remembered the barbecue food I had eaten yesterday, all the cans of soda I drank, the yummy golden OREOS.  The food that was supposed to turn into fuel in my body was WORKING AGAINST ME! And then I remembered the hilariously funny movie that I watched yesterday that wasn’t exactly censored, the curse words that I had just ignored because of the funny parts of the movie. Um yup, open door to my mind so I was battling in my mind! So the demons of what I had done this weekend came back to haunt me Monday morning on the track field!!  And I then I got out my WORD!  I reminded myself what God’s Word says about me, that I’m MORE THAN AN OVERCOMER in Christ Jesus.

37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. – Romans 8:37

That means that I’ve ALREADY OVER COME the track field.  Did that, check.  And I’m MORE than even just that.  And that one word is HUGE.  But I’m MORE THAN THAT.  And my legs might have forgotten it, but I reminded them.  My body had to be reminded this morning who GOD SAYS I AM.  Not who I used to be!!  Yes I was never ALL STAR at TRACK.  Yes, I was never ALL STAR at anything, because the old me hated sports.  BUT THAT WAS BEFORE JESUS!  When he died on the cross for me, in that moment, breaking the chasm of time, all that I was before DIED too! And I became new, washed fresh and clean.  No longer just a marathon shopper, my body COULD AND WOULD handle more than that!  No longer was I going to go through lethargy.  NO MORE! I was going to walk, I was going to RUN! I was FREE! And I had been given authority in Christ Jesus to trample the heads of serpents and scorpions and so every step was that – exorcising the demons of my weekend of gluttony and indulgence.

19 Behold, I have given you authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall hurt you. – Luke 10:19

RUNNING for my life

So this morning, I took to the track again.  Monday morning, week 2 in my “MY BODY IS THE TEMPLE CHALLENGE”.  God is still defining the challenge for me, so when I get more specifics on all of it, I will write a post on that.  But so far, here’s the deal, for years I dealt with depression in my life.  And since I found Christ, I’ve been healed and freed of that, praise God! But there are times when I feel like my BODY still didn’t know that I had been REDEEMED yet.  My body had been redeemed/ changed/ transformed just like the rest of me, but for some reason, it just hadn’t gotten the MESSAGE yet.  Or perhaps it was me that hadn’t gotten the message yet. 

So there were days I would get EXTREMELY fatigued, EXTREMELY.  And be unable to do a thing but just sit on the sofa and pray to get my energy back to wash the dishes or to clean the bathroom or do the laundry or SOMETHING, ANYTHING EXCEPT just sitting!  That was until Pastor Phil Hernandez came to visit our church a couple of weeks back.  He spoke about God’s will for our lives and our health, among other things.  His sermon was amazing; there were so many little intertwined points from the beginning to the end, truly a God thing only.  He spoke about how about after 30some? Years of struggling and BATTLING with ASTHMA he got sick of it!  He knew it wasn’t God’s will for his life.  And he began to pray DIFFERENTLY!

The Answered Prayer

12 “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. 13 And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If you ask[c] anything in My name, I will do it.  – JOHN 14:12-14

 He began to walk in his healing.  And he was healed.  To this day, he’s been ASTHMA-FREE for three years!  In that moment, I remembered the lethargy that would grip me up from time to time and I knew that WASN’T God’s will for me!! And I remembered the ASTHMA that had been attacking me recently, especially during dance, and I KNEW that WASN’T God’s will for me!  But it wasn’t going to just go away! I was going to have to fight for my healing!  I was going to have to take those steps. 

Well not only was running going to change my body, but it was going to fine-tune this weapon that the Lord was creating of my body.  It was going to build up my endurance for dance, one of the things that I LOVE to do for the Lord.  So there were so many aspects of it that screamed to me that it needed to GET DONE! So the next week, bright and early, I awoke at 6:30am and headed out to the track to meet up with some of the sisters from church.  Now I will be truthful, I was very hesitant about running with them, I mean they had been running for weeks, they were practically marathon run-worthy and here I was this weak-winded wannabe runner.  That first day they taught me the rules of the track, praise God for that because I was all over the place.  And they pushed me and challenged me.  So that week I ran/walked 3 times at the track and once around the neighborhood near my house. 

Everyday pushing myself further then I had ever been, further than I had ever been able to do.  This time for me, it’s different.  My goal isn’t to get toned for a bikini ready vacation body.  The PURPOSE behind it is to honor this TEMPLE of the Lord that God has given me. It’s to take my health back into my hands. It’s to increase my endurance, my lung capacity, my breathing so that my dance will be more powerful.  So follow me along this new journey of my physical rebirth. I’m going to write about it here, the good, the bad and the ugly of being physically restored to the place that God intends me to be.